Life seems to be a roller coaster. It's a roller coaster of emotions or situations. I think everyone recognizes these as a part of the life process and it is usually accepted as true, even if it is begrudgingly. What we fail to recognize are the sleep and wake phases of life. During a season of sleep, you are not physically sleep this whole time, but this is a time where you may or may not be aware of your purpose. You are just moving through life or towards a goal but there is no acceleration to reach them. Your sleep phase is when you feel blah at times. You feel like you are making moves but you aren't progressing. It is a season of questions. Why is this happening to me? Why haven't I accomplished such and such yet? Why me? During your sleep season, you can easily loose sight of your overall purpose. However, the sleep season is needed. Physiologically, when you are sleep, your body is repairing itself and building itself up. Spiritually, when you are sleep, God is repairing you, healing you, and building you up for the next awake season. Therefore, the sleep season is crucial. It doesn't always feel good. It doesn't always make sense. You may have some nightmares that you experience. But sleep is CRUCIAL! Therefore, the uncomfortable feeling that may be in this season must be endured. The great thing is, you won't sleep forever. There is a stirring you will feel right before you are awaken. You will know transition is coming because things around you will start drastically changing. Friendships and/or relationships will end. You will start thinking more about getting things done. You will feel an urgency. For some, the stirring is more uncomfortable than the sleep. It's because those last things that need to change happen at this time. It hurts to have to let that friend go that you thought would be around forever. Or realizing you weren't mean for that program you were in. Or you lose that dream job that you thought was essential to life. You have to notice the seasons are changing so instead of being sad and angry, you realize that greater is right around the corner. Right when you let go of those things that are hindering you from destiny, you will be awaken. For me recently, my sleep season was long! For atleast 5 years I was just moving through life. I knew what my purpose was and I made moves towards what I felt needed to be done to accomplish it. However, I was not completely flourishing. I was in medical school and working towards my goal, but only doing what needed to be done to complete it. There was no acceleration toward a greater purpose. Yet, emotionally and spiritually I knew there were lots of thing that were being dealt with. Trauma from my childhood was coming up. Disappointments from life were being dealt with. Rejection I had experienced from others was being addressed. I had lots of questions on why I wasn't where I felt like I should be. Then around the end of June, I felt an urgency to get things done. I felt like I needed to end a relationship that really wasn't going to go anywhere. I had a dear friendship end. I started seeing that I spiritually need to step up. I was disappointed by it all for a short moment. But then I realized that if I was having major changes that I was being shifted into a new season. When I had that realization I was no longer hurt by what happened but grateful that I had the opportunity to be shifted so I could reach destiny. The last shift took place for me when I attended a Trent Shelton show. God did that last shaking and I was instantly awaken! I knew what my greater purpose was. I knew what needed to be done. New connections were made. I realized that by ending the relationship and friendships that I was lighter and though they were good people, they weren't meant for my life. Their connection in my life was keeping me from accelerating. My eyes were open and I could see clearer than before. I started realizing that people around me needed me and for awhile, I was absent. I needed to be showing love to everyone around me and I hadn't been doing that. It was time to start operating in Kingdom purpose and not just Dorian's purpose. Being awaken has been great. It is because at this moment I know not only am I fulfilling my dreams but I am fulfilling my God-given purpose in life. My life is not my own. My purpose in life is not for me. It was after I was healed in my sleep and awaken, that I was able to begin to effect change in the lives around me. That, in the end, is what it is all about. I am now free to love others to life!
I urge you to recognize your seasons, get what you need from them and live! There are others who are waiting on you!
Dr. Dorian's goal is to affect others lives through love. through love, she hopes to motivate and empower people to become the best version of themselves.
The information in these blogs are not meant to diagnose or treat any condition. Please consult with your physician for medical advice pertinent to your situation!